They say the first three months of having a baby are the toughest…we just survived four weeks. I wonder what happens after the 3 month mark? Does it just magically change or is it that your body and mind finally become accustomed to the sleep deprivation and you learn a new way of functioning?

We had another rough night last night. Our little one decided she didn’t want to sleep after her 2am feeding and instead stayed up for a few hours. Those are the moments when its difficult not to think about the last four weeks of sleep deprivation and that your body is beginning to give up and that its really no wonder you’re feeling under the weather. How do you avoid getting sick when you haven’t had enough rest in a month and you’re stressed and tired?

And then a brand new day begins and both my husband and I are hurting physically and mentally. And the crazy thing is you wake up and somehow do it all over again. The beauty of it is that through the tough moments God sends you hilarious moments that keep you sane, and loving tender moments that remind you why it is that you’re able to do it all over again…despite being tired, having a throbbing headache, or feeling sick.

God reminds me of my blessings and gives me the strength I need when I see our little baby, healthy and growing, and when I take a step back to appreciate that I have a loving and supportive husband, as well as family and friends in our lives. Plus I also have the hope that one day there will be a night of good sleep. It may not be around the corner, but I know it’s out there somewhere making its way to us.