I’m so ready to throw in the towel with baby E and just pump and feed her with a bottle.
Today she decided she’s going to eat about every 2 hrs and only latching on each side about 5-8 min. In the meantime I want to cry! My nipples are sore again and all I can think is I bleeping HATE this. Insert nervous laughter for sanity sake.
So yes, nursing is a challenge for me. It was awful with our first one and it’s been relatively the same with our second.
I clearly remember being in tears (like bawling) with our first baby and telling my husband “this is NOT bonding, this is the most horrible thing ever!”
Not much has changed. Those images of the happy baby latched on perfectly to the nipple is so not my experience.
Sometimes I feel I’m going to go out of my mind. Her Doctor says to put her on a schedule – every 3 hours. La leche league tells me no, it’s best to feed on demand. Meanwhile neither seems to work, and my breasts are taking a beating. Really.
How do I get my girl to figure out that I’m not a fast food restaurant she can just rush into for a quick nibble and run? That I’m more of a Michelin 3-star restaurant where she needs to take her time and savor each flavor.
I love her and I want to do my best for her. I’m slowly losing my hope and tolerance for this though. And of course it doesn’t help that I’m still sleep deprived.