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Dark spaces

Sometimes I fall into this dark head space and I feel like I just turn numb inside. It feels like I stop caring and it feels scary to me. It feels scary because I am someone who feels deeply. I genuinely care about people and their well being, and what they may feel or think.… Continue reading Dark spaces

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Feelings are not in control

It’s funny how from one instant to the next your emotions and feelings can switch so quickly. This morning started relatively well. By the time both my girls were awake I realized that my oldest was a little bit sour, which is incredibly uncommon. She’s the one that 9 times out of 10 wakes up… Continue reading Feelings are not in control

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Let’s not ignore feelings

“It’s so important to pursue our kids. It gets busy in life and we can sometimes let those relationships slide and we can forget how quickly our children are growing up. You never want to overlook the long term relationship you’re building with your children.” That quote was from the last few minutes of a… Continue reading Let’s not ignore feelings

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“I Get To Love You”

Nothing gets me more than a song that pulls at my heart strings. Especially when it comes to areas in my life where I have felt (feel) deeply. Last Saturday was the Pep Rally / Rehearsal for the girls that are on the competition teams (and duets/solos) for the dance company we have Celeste in.… Continue reading “I Get To Love You”

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Let the calm come in

In the messy chaos and beauty that is motherhood for me, I think of these words. I am still feeling the lingering effects of last night’s emotional yet beautiful moment that I experienced with Celeste. Every morning I wake up and pray to God and ask him to help me be more patient, to not… Continue reading Let the calm come in

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The lonely voice of a mom

I am a lonely voice in the dark. Sitting here on our bathroom floor it hits me that I have become a line I once read in a book. I am so emotionally and physically exhausted it feels like my body is floating. All I want to do is close my eyes and cry. For… Continue reading The lonely voice of a mom

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Start Again

I truly believe this. Even on the toughest days. We have a choice, we can decide to roll over the yucky feelings from the day before or smile and take a deep breath and give the new day an opportunity to enter. I won’t allow the tired, frustrating and overwhelming feelings of yesterday define my… Continue reading Start Again

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I’m only human

I wasn’t sure what to do with the song “Human” by Christina Perri when I first heard it. I had been having a particularly difficult day where I felt sad and unappreciated and just tired. I knew I wanted to share it on here, but I was unsure whether I would write any of my own thoughts to go… Continue reading I’m only human

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The dark side of happy

Every once in awhile my heart sinks into a place of melancholy that no one knows about. It doesn’t happen often and when it does it is only when I am alone and darkness has settled and the people I love are tucked away in their space, living their own struggles or enjoying their own… Continue reading The dark side of happy

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Is this a taboo parent thought?

I’ve never shared this thought with anyone and in fact just today finally had the courage to voice it out loud to my husband, which gave me the confidence to share it on here… I feel though like I should first disclose that I absolutely LOVE and feel so blessed to be given the opportunity to be… Continue reading Is this a taboo parent thought?