It’s been a busy few days since I last posted and we got back from vacation. What I’ve been struggling with most is feeling so tired at times. Yesterday was my first day back at school and at the end of the day as much as I wanted to get started on a list of things I need to get working on for my different classes, all I could think of was doing nothing and resting. So I did just that, and bless my wonderful husband for being so understanding. And then today was my first day back at work. I was a little concerned about how busy I would be but was determined to go in there with the right frame of mind and taking my time so that I don’t stress myself out and expect to finish in one day what I’ve missed in a week. It turned out to be a great day at work and it was such a different feeling for me. I really allowed myself to just take one thing at a time and understand what I could get done and accept my limitations.
The plan once I got home and finished walking Biggie was to eat and then rest for 30 minutes and get started on some school work and also doing my post for the day. Instead I found myself tired again and rather than 30 minutes I ended up resting for nearly 2 hours. And here I am now at 9:20pm wondering how much I’ll manage to get done before bed time. I’d love to say that I can just stay up until 2am working on stuff and then go to bed and push through the following day, but if I were to do that I’d be miserable and non functioning. And I wonder, how in the world do some people do just that? How do they push through and manage to function the following day? Sometimes I’m embarrassed to even say I feel tired or overwhelmed when I think of other people’s more extreme scenarios but then I remind myself that we are all at different stages in our lives and that when the time comes God gives us the strength that we need to push through.
I think it’s about understanding our limitations at certain times and also going in with the right attitude. It isn’t so easy all the time but being aware of it is a huge step in itself. Like for instance tonight, I realized that as tired as I felt once I got myself warmed up to, for example starting this post, I found myself ready and wanting to write. And thankfully I don’t feel overwhelmed despite knowing that the next month and a half is going to be pretty demanding at school. I just need to remind myself, in those moments that I feel tired, to think positive and think of atleast one thing I want to get done and then go from there rather than trying to get a mass amount of items done all at once.
Well I’d love to write more but I feel happy with what I’ve posted so far and it’s time to move on to some school work.